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Days

It has not been a long time that I began liking the idea of a brand new day. Where possibly could I have picked this from? I cannot recall. Thinking of the possibilities. Haven’t been to an Archie’s store for enough lengthy a period to say that it is not from there. Have also not been listening to the radio jockeys these days. Where then? Did I see or hear of it somewhere in passing. I don’t know.

Did use it when I was trying to talk to someone. How the hell on so many recent occasions did I console myself often thinking it will be a brand new day tomorrow. What can a brand new day mean? The same sun would rise, the same clock will go through the same circle all over again. The moon and the stars will play their game. Is it some expectation that makes me always reassure myself of a brand new day as something very beneficial and fruitful. Isn’t it possible that this newness would mean misery of the ultimate intensity. Possible. After all, there are good and bad brands. Some so bad that we had to have a consumer help line in place.

What then should I think of tomorrow. Should I let it just call on me as an invited or an uninvited guest? I want so little of it that I don’t want to waste time writing an invitation. And the little I want…what about it? Do let me know. Is it safe to have faith in that tradition where a guest, whether invited or uninvited, comes to the host with a gift. I adhere. Another question then: What in case I do not want the gift this uninvited guest gets for me!

Do not ask me to enjoy the moment. I have tried and it has never worked. I am sick of that suggestion. I know! no one and nothing helps. I do not even know the problem. I should shut up!

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Slips

The act of writing something down is quite often a clear expression of one’s dissatisfaction or discomfort with the usefulness of certain other tools of communication. One often prefers not to listen, speak or act and chooses to write. I have so far only spoken, listened or acted. Pinning down one’s thoughts on a piece of paper leaves one relieved and troubled. The comfort comes from the fact that in the process of writing my ideas find a permanent abode. I can knock at the doors of this cottage as and when I please. I may even choose not to be bothered and leave it forever locked and unattended. This small fiefdom and the concern for devising ways in which I may keep it secure from the onslaughts of the uncivilised is the source of all trouble and discomfort. To me these comforts and troubles arise the moment this difficult task of writing a piece has been accomplished. I will be so happy and content if this cottage offers me and my reader some solace or pathos as and when needed. I feel elated at the manner in which my words dwell this abode and enjoy their lives. They greet the visitors and offer them all possible hospitality. The fear that an unwanted visitor will soon come knocking grips me often. This little beauty would then be attacked and the little ones would bleed. Would make for a depressing sight. Readers are the most violent beings I know of.

So far I have not shared this premonition with my words but they do know about it. I have a sense of them sensing my fears. I think that is the reason they don’t multiply their kinds in my head so readily. I stand up to it and scratch some of them down forcibly. Don’t mind if they appear rough edged to you. I have an old rusted spoon. Need to change it now.